Christmas Eve I went to Orchard Road at around seven pm and met zac at her workplace while waiting for Gack. Hell, it was damn packed and tight. Due to the human traffic jam, Gack met me one and a half hours later at about nine pm. We went karaoke at cuppage plaza till about eleven thirty and then met Shah and Ashley. The both of them were really awesome people to be with. The four of us decided to head down to supperclub, where there was a christmas event going on, to meet Yaya and to take a peek at Nec. Supperclub, honestly, was quite a bore due to the repetitive song playing and the crowd was not hyped up. However, supperclub was the place that Gack proposed to me =) At about three am the four of us headed down to tantrics next, however Ashley had to leave early. Tantrics is a nice place to chill out on that particular day. The three of us had our time together. At five am we ate at maxwell and then booked a hotel and got some rest there.

Christmas Day itself, we woke up at eleven thirty am and Shah went home while I went down to Gack's place. The both of us practically wished everybody who came close contact with us merry chirstmas. Taxi drivers to passer bys and what have we. Made a quick visit to vista point to rent some dvds. We watched Drag Me To Hell and I managed to get a glimpse of Wujud 2. At around eight thirty pm we went out to attend two christmas parties; Gack's friends. The food was fantastic =) two thumbs up. And soon after the party at about twelve thirty am Gack and his friends, including me, reached tantrics again for another round of chillaxing. However this time, it was freaking packed and I had to leave earlier =( I reached home at about one thirty am.

Gack, thank you so much for the date and outings and every single little things to the huge things that you did to make me feel myself and happy throught out the christmas period. I really do enjoyed myself to the fullest and it has been three times I went clubbing thanks to you. Thank you for the proposal and the ring and lending me your shirts and stuffs. Honestly, I really do appreciate everything. I hope to meet you soon, really really soon. On top of that, hopefully new year's celebration will be just as fun as the past two days we had experienced. Thank you for the cab fare and I sincerely apologize for all the wrong doings I did, be it accidentally or purposely with or without a motive =) hehe. Thank you once again and I love you, always.

Love always,
Danny Izann

i danced till my shoe sole has hole in between them!

10:21 AM

Today is the last day to apply for secondary five intake. At three pm, two hours before closing time, I changed my mind and I went straight to bukit panjang government high school and submitted my application form. I think it is a wise decision. I dashed out my ite plans from my mind and now, focused for secondary five o levels examinations. I have to buck up and definitely I need your support and motivation. Thanks to those who advised me and gave me hope. All of you played a part in this epically mind-changing decision. It is my future and I chose it right =)

Love always,
Danny Izann

and I am so looking forward for tomorrow's christmas eve celebration =)

12:37 AM

I watched Avatar today with Taufiq and it was an awesome two and a half hour action-packed and superbly great movie. I had to hold my bladder and force my ass to be seated because I did not want to miss a scene in that movie. Apparently Taufiq could not control his, haha! Seriously it is another blockbuster movie you people should watch. Right after the movie, I went for band practice. It was our last band practice for this year. I had a blast and amazingly I can see myself improving =)

Love always,
Danny Izann

7:47 AM

7:24 AM

I was already feeling down. Really really down. I felt so bored at home and my mum kept on continuously nagging at me. I really wanted to go out so I made plans with my godbrother yaya. I was really looking forward to it.

YAYA
Communication screwed up between me and my godbrother halfway throughout our outing and things just got worse by the minute. I was already super pissed off and realizing that it was my fault made me even guilty and sucky. It was like a cherry on top of a banana split. I swear it was. On top of that, I made Abang Ashton pissed off too.

SECRETS OUT
On Monday my mum woke me up at nine am in the morning while I was still fully asleep just to bombard me with some random personal questions. I was so pissed off at her for checking my stuffs without my permission. Now she knows my secret and when I tried to clarify things with her she wouldnt want to believe me. I was so embarassed to text message my godbrother for help despite being such a bitch the day before.

SILENCE
My mum and I did not spoke until today, Tuesday. The whole of monday was a bore. I stayed at home, hooking up with my computer and my hot ass stuck on the computer chair. The bestest monday blues I have ever experienced.

YOUTH MEETING
I managed to go out on Tuesday. I went for this youth meeting at onepeople.sg, a racial harmony organization. Firstly I was broke so I skipped lunch and tea time and had to rely on whatever tidbits that the organization prepared. Thank god for that.

BLEEDING ANKLE
When I was seating I accidentally hurt myself and ended up having a really bad bleeded ankle. I lost quite an amount of blood. I should have been more careful.

PHONE SPOIL
Thanks to those junior youth members for throwing all sorts of stuff toys at me. It was a wild pillow fight which spoiled my handphone. Now my sony ericsson phone is totally flat and dead. You guys really did a fantastic job at killing my phone with your awesome strength. Please aim properly. Aim me, not the phone. It is way too late now. And ironically with the mini tension going on with my mum, I still got the cheek to ask her "can i use your phone".

MESSAGES & PHONE CALLS
I had four messages in my inbox and I could not read any of them. I tried randomly pressing and navigate myself through my contacts and inbox but epically failed to get what I want. Dammit. Now I will never know what is in those messages. My ultimatum plan was whenever I received a message, I will straight away open and hit the call button.

BAD HAIR DAY
After the pillow fight. My hair was totally in a mess and I still need to attend band practice at woodlands. I really hated to see myself in that state. So unglamd and unkempt. Embarrassed to go for band practice.

Amazingly something happened during band practice that made me feel so much better. It sounds like a cheesy story but it is totally true. I called somebody and he asked me out on a date. I was telling to myself "after all the shit that happened to me for the past two days, why would somebody who I met once and did not even talk to, ask me out on a date on christmas day itself?" I felt so warmed. Now this is what I called a cherry on top of a banana split.

That conversation made me so aware of myself. It somehow gave me a turning point. A small mini roundabout. I told myself "today is fifteen tuesday, its my sister's birthday and why the hell am i out going for meetings and band practices [i dont dislike both okay], i need to go home to celebrate, to change my phone, to plan and be ready, and organized" and therefore I told my members "i got to go. i wanna go home."

I reached home and I felt so elated. I was just damn happy to be at home. The whole journey from woodlands to my doorstep I kept telling myself "i wanna go home. i should be at home". And true enough I did reach home. Thank god. Thank you so much for texting me. I believe that my life will change for the better in days to come. When life gives you shit, give it back to it! =)

Love always,
Danny Izann

I am sorry Abang Bal for the last minute plans.
Really really heartbreak sorry =( hehehe. Really.

8:50 AM

I have to say that I am usually not an attention seeker. However during times like this I really need some attention. Over the weekends Yaya went to Genting Highlands and after what has happened I really do not know what to do. Daddy texted me asking me what happened between me and Yaya. I told him the truth and I realized that my actions were indeed very disappointing. Daddy tried to talk to me over the phone after texting him what I did. However, honestly, I swear, I was too ashamed of myself to even talk to daddy on the phone. I am constantly feeling wrong and there is this hollow space in my heart. I feel very dissatisfied due to my actions. So please daddy, I am really very sorry. Please, I really need somebody to turn to now.

I know how completely childish and immature the above mentioned paragraph is and I am fully aware of how stupid and ignorant I am. Daddy, your advices I do understand and comprehend but I did not think through before doing what I did. I am really sorry.


Over the weekends I attended a very executive and high-end camp. This camp is about discussing the issues of racism and letting the campers think through about stereotyping. It explores the difference among cultures, races and enthicities. I have to admit that I enjoyed the camp very much and that I managed to fufill the objectives of the camp. Even though it is a two day one night camp, the group and I still managed to show teamwork cooperation and the camping qualities throughout the entire camp and discussion. Bravo Group One!

These are my team members. The ten of us including the two excellent facilitators.

The camp was held at Nanyang Executive Centre and therefore the accomodations given were superbly high-end. I indeed enjoyed my showers and the comfort of the bed as well as cable tv the entire morning til I overslept and was slightly late for the following day activity, which also means I skipped breakfast.

Yaya & Daddy, I am really sorry =(
i love you both. i do.

4:11 AM

I've been roaming around, always looking down at all I see. You know that I could use somebody. I feel so remorseful and regretful. I want to sincerely apologize to my abang. I know what I did was wrong and that I should have never break a promise. I feel so bad, I swear I do not have the mood to go camp tomorrow. I am really sorry.

7:05 AM